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April 28, 2004
Ignorance is Bliss?
Recently ive again heard a situation where someone is being ignored or they felt the similar way how i felt 2 1/2 years ago.
I've encountered a massive ignorance or sorta and i felt discriminated. How did i face? i dont know.. What i remembered is i tell myself, i CAN survive without them. yes, them althout i know it wont work cause noone can survive without them.
Time flies. the stand i made, made me brainstormed myself and start thinking how do i face the situation for REAL and once and for all solve the problem and the ties between them. .. *pause*
Im not sure what time trying to say.. but in short.. life is like stepping on slippery stones. If you are not calm and tough enough, or not careful, u might slip and fall. But the most important thing is, know how to get back up and go on...
Posted by crooked at 12:25 PM | Comments (7)
April 21, 2004
The World Beyond Expectation?
The world is just beyond your imagination but not expectations. There are a lot of things that will happen beyond your reach or sometimes it is too risky to reach for it.
There's been people around keep advising me to get away from the reaching point or the meeting point of the two on coming rivers! Their reasons, excuses are all well self-explainatory and reasonable. But is it true?
it was like a wooden bridge built over a stream. however, i would like to replace it with a firm metal bridge. This is because the bridge is holding up a high capacity of usage.. vehicles, villagers are all using that bridge. An intention to build a metal bridge is not an extreme idea at all.. at least that is what i think.!
However, theres been advices that i should leave the wooden bridge which is prone to wear and tear. but the vehicles from this side to the other side is getting heavier and more!
Is it that i've once again have to leave the place as what it is and go to another village to build the wooden bridge, metal bridge.. and start the process again? Why is that there are never any villages that they propose to build the bridge instead? and why my intentions always get disagreement fromthe other village?
The heart is sore.. and the shadow is here clouding over me again. Is it a sign to show me that this is the time to go uphill and forget the dream of building a metal bridge? and showing that the fate is always influencing my destiny..
Posted by crooked at 08:33 AM | Comments (7)
April 17, 2004
Lost Treasures
Treasures... what really is treasures? is it Gold, pearls or silvers are treasures? Rings? treasures of course does not just covers monetary items.. but also friendships, the bondings and ties around two persons or more.
The journey is in cloudy skies right from the starting line where it varies from different starting points. Some of the paths are rocky, some are stormy.. some are even have boulders right in the middle of the path or even detours are needed. The question is.. how long is this path? and what is the risk of having to take this path instead of the other?
Eventually a journey had started around 2 and a half years ago that forked out to a few pathways.. the road seem paved and smooth journey is expected.. however some landslides and cliff hanging pathways had halted the journey and which is very unforeseen. During that time, the experience is like in a deep ravine or well all alone looking up there hoping someone will show up at the opening of the well mouth.
As i'd read my sister, Aileen's blog.. something comes to my mind.. Lost and Found . at that time, there are the ties are temporarily broken but the determination for being a Friend is never halted. Learnt on how to understand others, care for others' feelings. Learn how to be a Friend. Now, i see the paths are cleared and im on my way to continue my journey... the journey to become a REAL friend.
Posted by crooked at 03:28 AM | Comments (4)
April 12, 2004
The Mass On Me
Love is in the air... spring season is here! Haha, at least that is what it is going on now.. it doesnt covers just the weather, fashion, food, it does touches the relationships!
Glasses are started being scratched part by part, and colours are being dimmed into the panels to smear all around. Initially the thought of those glasses being tinted indoors, but somehow, those were done outdoors smoothly!! Seems like ive missed parts of the process of the others...
Aight, that is others, but somehow, is this is gonna happen to me as well? A push of confidence will make a mark on it but it seems the opportunity is still blur and far away. I've been shown the path by others, but the path ahead is still in the mists of hesitations. However, have to thank specially to a good friend of mine miles miles away but it seems my heart and mind can be breached! Siang Yee, i must thank u again if i could get the scratches on my piece of glass. =)
The question is still ranting in my head.. but fortunately i can still rationally think of my work, and happenings around me. This wait might be long, but the hope of getting a satisfactory consequences is always in my mind....
Posted by crooked at 06:03 AM | Comments (16)
April 06, 2004
Left or Deaf
Goodness sake.. lots of things happening around these days.. scripted right from college politics to romance. Have been working all round trying to adapt my lifestyle back to usual study mode rather than Vacation or Paradise mode from Redang.
Friends have been telling me their problems and experiences where new thoughts come into my head. Things used to be as simple as cooking a bowl of instant noodles but now it turns out you have to make a feast for 10!! that would be a huge difference. Sometimes, the risk is too huge that u are not ready to face it of the effect of a bad streak of history. However, u might feel something strong that might have positively taken place if you are daring enough to take the risk. There are too many things to consider cause every move will cause things drastically (at least for me).
I've been talking to a few of my close friends about this.. and what they advises me is exactly what are in my thoughts. ~sigh~ seriously ive never been in such a complex situation. I used to make decision decently fast and risk is always as stake. But this time.. just that, i've been taking care of many aspects which my departure to further my studies might have contributed a lot in my considerations. Its always good to leave an unscratched plane of glass rather than a scratched one. of course if possible i would like to carve it beautifully and keep the glass in perfect condition ever! How could i decide?? or afterall i shouldnt decide at all..?
Posted by crooked at 06:20 AM | Comments (12)
April 03, 2004
A Poem
Its been a long time ive put my pen down to write some poem.. but i was inspired of by the beaches and the atmosphere in Redang and happenings around me.. so i decided to write one.. but it migh not be good at all, but i would like to dedicate this to both of my sisters, Aileen and Amanda.. hope they would like it.
Stars of Life
The gaze of deep sea,
the breeze of tranquility,
brushes thoughts to aside,
sweeping courages to abide,
The star gazing seems aint enough,
where time plucks the chances,
junks the risks to take,
The mimic replenishes the youth of the night,
lengthen the lifeline of the sea,
whereas, the sea blends,
the sand, the breeze, and the sensation,
to sway the thoughts of love,
to the owner, at the right time,
The time passed,yet the experience and infactuation stays,
forever,
sculpturing the memories in the heart.
in the maze of waves, found a pair of wonderful sisters,
been my limbs, the ears to lend,
the island of magical brought them here,
for me to treasure and love,
where even time cant replace them...
Posted by crooked at 11:03 AM | Comments (2)
April 01, 2004
The Cooking Tastes Differently..
Patience pays off as the trip to Pulau Redang planned a month earlier finally took place and the tour starts at night of 28th of March right in front of Taylors College Subang Jaya.
Lots of interesting events happened and occurs as some minor mishaps couldnt escape from the package of joy. Sun sea and sand has been in the mind of those who went to Pulau Redang.. which all of us enjoyed ourselves. I know theres people took this chance to snorkel and take a peek of the tottally different world under the sea surface. Meanwhile some took this opportunity to make themself think of what they are in doubts.
This trip creates lots of oppotunity for willingful takers to close up friendship ties, relationship ties and some even has two wonderful sis....
...There are moments that should be remembered and moments to be forgotten.. some are hurt and have minor cuts yet they are laughing and jumping in joy.. some are enjoying the free and easy lifestyle that you have nothing to worry about on the island of tranquility.
Way back....Laguna Resort on the background...
You can deny the fact that listening to the waves and blends yourself with the sea breeze and sand at night is very calm and spontaneously make urself relaxes and dream... gave people courage, inspiration and salvaging yourself from doubts.
Night activity we had, sandcastle challenge, has been very inspiring to create teamwork, workability, creativity and sense of design of sand structure. I am very glad that this idea of sandcastle building is successful.
I can say that im quite satisfied on how the trip goes this time with the help of my fellow dear friends and moral support from my two sisters. Thanks Dearē =)
Posted by crooked at 12:45 PM | Comments (6)